You will stop when the negatives outweigh the positives you get when you drink. You wanted to be dry for March but then you had a bad day in which you got lost, gave an elderly person less care than you usually do, felt bad about it and drank. Then you rationalized you already drank in March so oh well and drank more. When you can tell yourself it’s a bad day, oh well tomorrow will be better without needing to Sooth yourself with alcohol, that will be a major turning point.