Tonight will be my first dose of Valium at 15mg in my benzo taper. That'll be a full 25% reduction. I slept well last night. I had a quiet day, walked my dog and attended the ZOOM Drop-In hour which was pretty tame. I reluctantly stepped on the scale and it was over 250. I've made two failed attempts to diet just this week so i finally emailed in to my doctor asking about our city hospital's weight loss clinic. It's a pretty intense two year program and i don't know if i will be eligible due to my bipolar. It's so hard to keep up year-round activities when i have four mood swings a year. They're probably not taking new patients now due to COVID but perhaps i could get on a waiting list. They'll probably be looking for evidence that i can commit to a long project so this benzo taper may be good proof, if all goes well.