Please tell your T. Things will get better.

If you have a plan and are seriously getting your affairs in order, you need to be somewhere safe, and that might mean the hospital.

The hospital is not bad. It is fairly low key, you do some group therapy, do some art therapy, watch TV, eat alot, get meds changed or added, play cards, meet other people struggling, etc.

You don't want to kill yourself. Trust me, there is beauty still out there.