You can get through. You are strong even if you don't feel it. You have every right to be angry and everything else. What they have done is just wrong.
Do you have to use them or is there somewhere else you can see about getting into? Would your PCP be willing to get you back on your meds? I know some PCPs stay away from them but some are willing especially if it's something you were already taking.
Trust and believe I understand how hard it is to do anything when you are dealing with major depression. It makes you just want to curl into a ball and give up. EVERYTHING is a monumental task you have to work yourself up to.
I have literally not eaten for up to three days because I honestly just couldn't find the energy or wherewithal to cook something. It was all I could do to drag myself to the bathroom and crawl back in bed. Part of the time I slept on the bathroom floor so I didn't have to actually walk to it. Then I said EFF this and I got mad! I will not let this beat me! I have not survived everything in my life to just quit and let this win! Anger can be a hell of a motivator. Find what works for you and use it to get help. Do not give up you are stronger than it is. 
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I think I need help 'cause I'm drowning in myself. It's sinking in, I can't pretend that I ain't been through hell. I think I need help---Papa Roach
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