Just venting. Therapy was going very well with the therapist this evening up until the last 10 to 15 minutes of the conversation.

I brought up a topic, and the therapist brought up something else in response. I asked her what the relationship is between what she's talking about and the topic that I had brought up. She explained, but it didn't fully make sense to me. I listened and responded to what she brought up, and asked her to explain again what the connection was to what I was talking about. She said that she wasn't sure, but that she was tired and couldn't think about it any further. I got upset and said that it's not fair that she's always tired Monday evening, and we can't adequately and fully address what I bring up in therapy.

She hung up the video call abruptly when we still had 2 minutes left. I tried to call her back, but she hung up on me. I text messaged her, and she responded that we would pick it up on Wednesday, but I was upset and continued to message her. She then said that she was about to terminate me because I was text messaging her.

If the therapist can't emotionally regulate herself, how can I be expected to be calm and not anxious and regulate myself?

It's not right or professional for the therapist to hang up the video call just like that. I offered her to stop doing therapy on Monday at 5:45pm after I noticed that she's tired at that hour. At first, she took me up on the offer, but changed her mind. She's always checking the clock on Monday evening. I'm her last patient on Monday. But on other days when we would do therapy – Wednesday and Friday – we could go one or two minutes over. It's not an issue. She's not obsessively looking at the clock or in a hurry to get off the call.

When the therapist said that we would pick it up on Wednesday, I probably shouldn't have continued to write to her anymore especially because she has rules about no outside contact and text messaging. In that moment, I just felt really upset and that what she did was wrong. Maybe it was justifiable for me to call her back or demand that we finish up our 2 minutes. But just because it's justifiable doesn't mean it's a wise thing to do given that the therapist was already tired, has rules about outside contact, and things between us are volatile as we're repairing.

Things between the therapist and I had been going very well. We even started the call with her sharing that she felt like sending me two to three heart shape emoticons over the weekend, but didn't do it. Then in almost a very bipolar way, things suddenly just changed in the last 10 to 15 minutes of our conversation. It's unfair. Maybe I shouldn't have continued to ask the therapist why this and why that because she was already feeling tired, and that probably only made her feel pressured. But therapists should maintain a degree of composure. If they can't emotionally regulate themselves, how can they expect the patient to do it?

It's an exhausting pattern for therapy on Mondays to do badly because the therapist is tired and has decreased tolerance while we spent the rest of the week repairing whatever it is that happened on Monday.