i agree with the wise and wonderful BeyondtheRainbow! Hopefully you will be able to better handle your new diagnosis here as time does pass. i Hope and Pray that other members will be able to assist you as well. Definitely contact your own therapist or pdoc as well if you have any questions. i am here if you need some support and Hopefully many others as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @SQLVR, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!