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did it again folks... gots to quit doing this.... just have to...

I sugar binged and passed out again... one of these days.. just one of these days... I am going to.. not wake up...

feel freezing cold from the sugar.... it drops my temp..

And... in line at the grocery store.. was a person with an eating problem of some sort... and I wanted to hug her.. so so so badly...

she was about 60s... like my friend... who was anerxiox..
bones..
buying.. shakes.. and baby food... and the only thing I do know.. was she had an eating problem... not why..or what...

I wanted to hug her and say.. you are not alone.. I am here... I am here...

And I did Nothing.. and I hate that I did nothing.. why didn't I do something...

and I feel that I was being given a "choice".. and my time is running out... for "God" to have put that person there - He was saying - you.. you.. have a choice... be well.. do not do this..

and I did it anyway...

because I didn't know what else to do with the pain I was feeling...

so.. this is a healing thread... perhaps no one will read it because you all are sick of me..

and I wouldn't blame you... I really wouldn't blame you...

but.. I have got to do things differently... my body isn't going to keep taking this..

love to all of you....