I finally did what I've been dreading doing and avoiding....I wrote a letter to my family member who died. I am sure I have more to add but I have to stop so I can sleep. As it is now it just made me cry a lot which I think is the point. That and dealing with the feelings. I hate dealing with feelings. But I needed to do this.

Grief is hard. I'm taking a grief class and I think that's one of the things I really have learned. It's so simple but so true.