So get this,
Remember a while back I worked an Amazon Fulfillment Center? Of course my circumstances changed (not to mention my horrible time there) and I left? I got an email today asking about documentation for my “leave of absence”. They technically still have be employed! The email provided is a general one and the number has no direct line. I called and asked specifically for my manager on the case who I never spoke to once from when I took my leave of absence…. In august of 2020…. And they told me they can’t transfer me but can make a note. I about went ballistic. I kept my cool to tell the person on the line I appreciate her doing her job to the best of her ability and it’s nothing against her but this is the exact reason why my mental health suffers – you have an immediate issue and no one who can do a damn thing on the line. I asked her to write in my file I have quit, thus my leave is now null and if I haven’t been terminated, do it.

I decided to go one step further. Luckily for me, all my issues I had are documented in a lengthy and very detailed memo to HR online. They never followed up with me but “closed” the issue, after I requested some update. In my limited speech letter – I explained I had outlined major issues in the past with co-workers, managers, the institutions inner workings, and the lack of support in-house for anything, in a previous case and gave it’s ID, and basically laid it out there. My mental health suffered under their policies and lack of understanding. I was unprofessional and assumed once my leave ended and I didn’t show up to work, it would be over – but that didn’t happen. Mainly, because whoever was over my leave never contacted me in the first place – which I made great strides to contact during that time. I just said, to hell with it, for my health I was moving on.

I apologized for not being professional, but I do no regret my decision. I did what I had to, for me. I made it clear my point wasn’t to re-hash the issue, but to show that it still deeply affects me today. I still harbor very negative and horrible feelings about my time there, the way I was treated, and the way I never could get anything done. I asked them to not reach out to me ever again, unless 100% necessary, and in the end, I no longer work there, it’s no longer a pressing issue for anyone – but hopefully my concerns could be taken for their value and maybe their could better their practices.

I did get a message saying I should formally resign through the website, but the local HR would contact me with an update on everything via email since I preferred that if contact had to be made, but they would respect my want to leave it in the past the best they could. Two hours later, there is an post on my case and it’s marked as “closed” but my account is now “disabled” so I can’t read it. I guess it’s over with and they got what they needed.

If I do or if I don’t get a message from them about any of it – it truly doesn’t matter. I said the truth. The only person with a problem is the man who doesn’t work for them. I am scorned and hurt and it affects me much more than I’d like to admit. I’m ill and I won’t deny that, but it’s not a scenario that has to exist as it does. As I said in my letter – disregard the following if you don’t see reason to deal with it – I’m just a nobody who is not even employed there anymore – but there are lasting consequences to being in scenarios like that. I know I’m not the only one who went through that hell. I implored them to talk with their managers and higher ups to better their processes, update their information, make sure everyone can be on the same page and stop blaming the new-comer for things they had no way of knowing. I still wish I had a chance to tell the man who tried to accuse me of not being “vigilant” about a schedule change (when my schedule was supposed to be static) without any written warning or advisement. That was a bunch of bull, and that wasn’t even the beginning.

Anyway, it’s over now. I have been terminated (officially, I mean… it’s been 6 months lol) and I don’t have to look back. I did get the chance to attach my “manager”—the one who personally attacked me with his ignorant and arrogant talk who I formally complained on. I wanted him to see exactly what I had to say about him in my HR complain prior, and my resignation and why I chose to leave. I had to give a reason for why I was giving him access to see it – and I was kind. I told him, I gave him access to both because the former was about him, and the latter mentioned the former. I know he meant well, but it affected me greatly, and I wish him well.

It’s over. I guess I can let go now. On some level, it’s closure.