(((((((((((( beadlady29 )))))))))))))))
Sorry you are going through such a struggle. I'm sure it's very difficult for you and the others to continue fighting against a strong one.
Good for you for trying to ground and stay in the present. It's not always easy is it. Do you have some soft music that you can listen to....maybe sit and write for a bit.......watch a fun movie that the littles might enjoy....do some coloring or drawing maybe?
I hope you get through this time quickly and are feeling better soon.

sabby