I just got out of a particularly "busy" session with T. As bad as the last year has been, I realize that I have really grown, and so has Little Cool. I talked about that a lot in the session. I talked about SO MUCH in this session; I could have gone on talking another hour or more.

I know she and I will terminate in 2 or 3 years, because she is going to retire then, but it is already on my mind A LOT. She is the only t I have seen individually (I did some family therapy years ago.). I have seen her for more than 30 years.

At the same time, I am considering retirement for myself. I have worked in my current job for over 35 years, a job I used to love, but which I now hate. I've looked at my finances, and I know I can probably retire by the end of this year. If certain things (which I won't talk about publicly, as much as this forum is, lol) happen at my job, I can see working there another few years, but I don't HAVE to.

So far, it has been ok (for me) to talk about my retirement but not T's retirement.

There is so much more I can say. For now, let me share what I shared with T a little while ago: I still have everything T has ever given me (emotionally, intellectually, physical gifts), and they won't go away just because she will.