Part of me knows my therapist is no longer a good fit for me. The reasons are subtle, but also profound. I won't go into all the details. It's nothing nefarious or unethical, but I think I've known for a long time that she isn't right for me. However, I continue to struggle with letting go.

The problem is that I am DEEPLY attached to her. I do have severe attachment trauma from my family of origin (in addition to issues around loss, abandonment, trauma bonding and abuse). So even though I know I need to let her go I am literally clinging to her like a terrified child....doing everything I can possibly think of to make it work. Without going into specifics, I know for a fact this is a reenactment. However, she has not seemed to notice. Or at least she hasn't acknowledged it.

It feels like if I lose her I will die. Of course, my rational mind /adult self knows that's not true. I'm fully aware that it's in my best interest to move on. Yet, I absolutely feel that I can't do it.

Has anyone experienced something similar? How did it work out?