I'm not doing well. I'm upset over an incident that took place 2 days ago. I can't shake it. I spoke on the phone to a rude receptionist at my doctor's office. She said horrible things to me and treated me like I was a low life cause I had canceled some appointments. That doctor refuses to treat me now. I tried to explain that I canceled out of fear of getting Covid. She just reminded me that I made the appointments. I don't understand what's so wrong. I canceled them days in advance. I can't get over the harsh judgment. I feel like a degenerate. I can't focus. I don't feel like doing anything anymore. I'm ruminating and I'm depressed. My therapist isn't any help. She just says do your stuff. I've tried. I keep thinking that I'm worthless.