Please do try your best to resist. i am assuming hospitalizing does suck but it is good that you are getting Help at least. Try to remind yourself that this is Hopefully just a temporary thing and that you should be able to get back on track when things do improve! i think you are strong! Please do not give up! Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Have Hope, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!