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Originally Posted by buddha1too
This isn't really bipolar related, but yesterday I found myself extremely agitated by real (perhaps perceived) slights directed at me by one person in particular. I know that person is going through a rough time, so I didn't say anything in response. I carried & replayed that garbage in my head all day, though...playing the tape over & over again. If I'd confronted that person at the time, I know my words wouldn't have "sounded pretty," so it's probably a good thing I bit my tongue. It's just strange how much I can obsess about relatively trivial things sometimes.
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I live and breathe that. I've always been that way. I replay and obsess over that situation or moment over and over ad nauseum. Years later it still invokes the same visceral responses. I really do hate that about myself. They may have been trivial, or maybe not -- but with the time past and the moment gone... they're no longer important to harbor the way I do. It's something i'm working on.
I hope your situation resolves itself -- an off day for anyone can trigger a lot of unpleasant interactions. I recently stopped talking to my best friend over some relatively petty, but important things to me. I do not regret my decision to distance myself, but I do hate it is like that.
I don't feel like doing the research -- but I think there is a documented connection between obsessive behaviors, inlcuding rumination of thoughts, and bipolar. So, just to go back a bit, I think your point is very bipolar related. I know I can relate to what you said!