So I'm going to cancel my next appointment with my current therapist who is dumping me because the VA limits the # of sessions. Because - if he said to me, "Look, you've got issues you need help with but the VA will only approve 12 sessions. When we're done here, I advise you to XYZ, but don't just give up, whatever you do." then I could respect that. I can't respect the "What you have now is just going to have to be good enough for you because the VA won't approve any more" - how can a doctor say that with a straight face? Every other civilian doctor I've seen who has gotten a run-around by the VA on medications or tests or treatments has said "This is BS, you need this treatment/test/medicine, and we're going to fight for it" which is a reasonable stance, I think. I actually did have one doctor who got so frustrated with VA refusal to approve tests/medicines that he stopped seeing veteran patients altogether which kind of stunk. But a doctor who looks at a patient who cries during every session, reports severe depression, has a lifetime of trauma, and says, "Good enough." - I just don't think I could look him in the face again.
I've signed up with an online therapist but I'm getting frustrated there too, because all I get are what look like canned answers. I feel like I'm talking with a bot. All the reviews for this person are sooooo glowing but my experience is just not good so far. I'm trying to decide whether to ask for another one, or tough it out for a while and see if it gets better. Seems like nothing is ever easy, lol.