I was super attached to former T. She let me email and text her. I would email maybe once a week for a long email and then maybe a couple of shorter ones. (Really she should not have let me email her except for maybe when she was out of country because it really made the attachment worse.) I don't think she ever knew how attached I was to her until the last session when I was crying so hard because we had to stop (she got MS).

I'm sorry; that must have been terribly painful.

With current T, I try hard to not get attached. So far it's working. I concentrate on some of her human flaws (whereas I overlooked those with former T) so it keeps her more real and less for lack of a better word idealized.

That's so interesting! A clever way to work with your own mind.

I doubt your T sees you as ugly or crazy. When you care about someone you see the best in them.

That's a good thought to keep in mind, though hard for me to accept.