I assume you feel this way because it happened before (but you may not remember a specific incident if it was tied to childhood in a subtle way)? My POV is that this is a type of phobia--if she reacts in the way you worry about, it will hurt but you will get through it and find you survive it. The next time will be easier. Though you have said she probably won't act this way--perhaps rejection isn't always a bad thing? Sometimes life is disappointing and we have to face it rather than avoid it. We all avoid things though--including me. It is just that we all have different phobias. And I find your posts to be beautiful--you are intelligent, sensitive and caring--you are not crazy, you are just more aware of your crazy side!