I keep asking myself the same question. I had many opportunities to leave him, even long before we got married, and before there was a child in the middle of it all. Part of me wishes I would have just called it quits back in 2002, or 2004. But I didn't. I really don't know why!

I think a big reason for me is that I don't think anyone else would want me. I would end up an overweight, depressed, single mom who had cheated on her husband several times. What man would want that?! I never dated at ALL before I met him. We met when I was 19 years old. He's the only man I've ever really cared about, and I just keep thinking that this is all I can get. Maybe I just expect too much out of marriage, maybe this is all I deserve.

And yes, for now, I'm staying with him for my daughter's sake. Because I don't want to break up an otherwise happy family.