Yes I'm terribly attached to my T. I always knew it, but it's really hit home over the last few months due to various things going on from both sides. I see my T once a week but I can send messages between sessions, albeit I really try to curb the need to and sit with my feelings more.

I have told her but like you I'm not sure she really knows how deep it goes. I've even hinted at attraction and she's been fine with it so far, but I guess I'm scared to admit honestly just how I feel about her. Each time I have hinted I've walked away from the session feeling more at peace with it, so I think (at least from my experience) talking it through, as impossible as it admittedly feels, seems to be the key to dealing with the feelings.