Reading your post, the thought that came to me was: it is okay to have needs. There is nothing shameful about it.

Your therapist is seemingly giving you something you may not have had at a time when you most needed it (young child). It makes sense to feel attached and want that, or more of that.

The 'yuck', 'crazy, ugly' statements you use about yourself make me feel sad as this is rather harsh towards that part of you that just wants... love? to be loved? to be wholly accepted? This a basic human need.. Far be it from me to project what your T would feel but, I would lean more towards compassion rather than judging you as yucky or ugly etc.