i am not sure if i'd go as far as to call it manipulative behavior but it is good that you're acknowledging it at least. i'd suggest to try your best to control it and perhaps writit yourself down if you're afraid to forget it or if you feel like you did something "wrong. Please do not give up. i think it is fair to talk to your Friends abotu the doubts you're having. Hopefully she will support you. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @cookiepie234, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!