Thank u for sharing!!! It’s actually helped me to have a better perspective on life and I’ve also come to realize that I’m even happier than before my diagnosis. I think I actually repressed and suppressed so many memories that when I had my first manic episode they all came spewing out like a shaken bottle of Dr. Pepper when it gets opened. My thoughts and words were on fire and so mixed up that I said just about anything. Now that I’m stable I’ve realized how much of “me” I’ve kept hidden, afraid to discuss, afraid people would judge me for my past so I kept secrets. I think when I was triggered it was like I was very drunk but with tons of energy. Now that I’m “sober” I’m actually more myself than I’ve ever been before. 😀