I'm worried about my future. I have some big decisions I need to make to start moving forward. It's overwhelming and there is just something blocking me from making them. So, I just stay stuck and spinning in worry. I'm grateful that no one is hassling me to make them right now and I am in a good position overall. But I fear not getting things moving soon is going to put me in a bad position. I don't want to feel any more desperate than I already do. Couple all of that with feeling I'm letting people down, though I don't know who exactly, and that I'm not living up to my potential. If I could go back to my old life things would improve dramatically, but temporarily. But I don't want to go back and I don't know what to do instead. I don't feel like I'm good enough. At anything. As always I'm just trying to get through the day.