So Sorry that you're dealing with this! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about taling about this with a professional perhaps. i can relate a bit personally as i do struggle a bit with doing even some simple tasks but i haven't been diagnosed with nvld so i am not sure if i can help you with that. i Hope and Pray that you will be able to find what you're looking for, though. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @SQLVR, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!