Hey marmarcat,

I'm sorry about what your perverted brother did to you during the time of your life where you're supposed to be enjoying innocence and pure fun. ;[

I think it would be better if you have a close friend or a family who you can talk to about these things. So that when you feel like you can't take things anymore, you can just run to that person. It would also help if you seek professional help, since they're the expert on these matters. ;]

I wish you the best as you deal with this.

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