We can't tell you what to do, especially not without knowing your situation in detail. i'd like to suggest though to carefully think about what you want to do as this is no small decision. i'd suggest to talk about this with your Wife as well if it is possible. Please do not rush this. Decide carefully. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Whataremyoptions, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!