Hey takseye,

What you're going through is quite common to what people have been experiencing, you're not alone, don't worry. ;] And I just registered today too! And like you, I have no idea how I ended up on this forum but yeah... I'm here now, lol.

I agree to what Psychotic_Phil said. Although the first person who can help yourself is you yourself, at this stage of discomfort and confusion, you cannot do it all by yourself. It would be helpful if you undergo therapy or some sort of professional help since they're the experts on that area. Like Phil, I also realized that I do better when I'm surrounded with my close friends or something, so maybe something similar could work out for you?

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