I don't know if I posted on the right board, but maybe those who have experienced being in the four-cornered walls of the white-walled hospital/assylum could gather and just chill, and help each other. ;]

I'm 20 and coping. ^^

I was diagnosed with clinical depression, but more of a Bipolar Disorder (hypomania only), last January 2008. For 20 years, I kept things to myself, like how I cut and hurt myself, my suicidal thoughts, even all my problems I keep to myself only. I didn't dare tell anyone, not even my closest friends because I'm usually regarded as the one who'll be helping them in their problems, not the other way around.

A lot of thing happened to me prior to my being confined in the psychiatric ward but that was truly an unforgettable experience. I still couldn't grasp up to now what the hell to do with my life, to bring back the happy me. I'm an honor student, student leader, and all that, and with everything in my life lately, I've become the complete opposite.

I failed five subjects already in my University. ;[ I've never really spoken about these things in public like on this forum, but since we're kind of anonymous anyway, I thought talking about it will help me. I have to keep my sanity on a good level, y'knowwww.

The reason: Well, I was brought to the hospital immediately after I refused to talk to anyone nor go near anyone, after my father slapped me in the face two times. My family is a mess, my father cheats with my mother and hell she knows it but still stays with our family. My ex-boyfriend abused me sexually for like a year or so. I had financial and academic problems. Insomnia and all. Everything's happening at the same time, and I'm losing myself. Plus, they learned I attempted to kill myself a lot of time. So they put me in the ward.

WOW. Letting those off is such a relief. But sometimes, I don't know how long can I go on like this...you know, just hanging on. Sometimes, I just watch my life pass by in front of me and fall into deep thoughts. *SIGH*

Just felt like sharing.....

So anyway, has anyone of you guys gone to a mental institution/psychiatric ward or something similar?

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