I've been married for nearly 40 years. I'm definitely not opposed to needed separations, even if (when any children involved are not young) that means seeing other people, in certain cases. The way your post reads, however, it sounds like you're pretty deeply involved with your ex. It sounds like you want to remain in your marriage, with your children, while having a relationship with another woman. That's called "I want my cake and eat it, too." If I were your wife I would be extremely concerned. I support her feeling angry and frustrated with you.
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