MatBell,
Are you getting treatment for your depression and anxiety? Now that I am not feeling as anxious lately, I realize how much my anxiety held me back in my life. Our fears are dream killers. Our fears cause us to procrastinate and not try because of the fear of failure. The thing is that when we are learning new things, we can learn a lot by trying and failing. I will pray that you can overcome your fears and find a way to move forward. What is it that you fear the most? Many of the things we fear are completely or partially out of our control. I try (this can be hard sometimes) to take it one day at a time. I hope you feel better today then yesterday.