Hi all! Today he discarded me. The relationship i spoke about with the alcoholic who i also think is on drugs. I was on track to get him out of my life then like an idiot I allowed him back and after a few months i get discarded by text AND Only after i had to ask. He became distant, sex damn near stopped he started to ignore my texts and calls. So i asked was he seeing someone else and he said “no i’m seeing myself “ i ask so are we broken up he says “idk” then say he didn’t feel the same anymore and said I didn’t check on him when he had covid. Now i called, texted, and tried video chatting him during “covid” he didn’t answer and when he did he always said he was fine he just had no taste so now all of a sudden he tells me I didn’t check on him and he was in pain for 2 weeks. For 1 not sure why he’d want me at risk being around him if he had covid and i have a heart condition #2 he allowed the man living with him to call me a ***** a year ago so i no longer felt welcomed there. I thought i did my best with calling and texting. But now he throws it in my face and dumps me saying he didn’t miss me while he was sick and didn’t feel the same. I know people will say he did me a favor. But i still hurt. I even called domestic violence hotline just to talk and I answered a checklist verbally yes to all questions and I didn’t realize how much i have tolerated. Verbal abuse and some physical that apparently i had blocked out. They ask about choking at first i said no then i said wait yes he has he tried during sex once to choke me and i told him to stop and it took him a while to get off me he thought it was a joke. I have endured and tolerate and to him i am just a poof be gone. Maybe its drugs or another woman or both it still hurts like hell.