I’m reframing and accepting how things are with h, and hoping to stop having these fight/flight meltdowns. It’s embarrassing. I don’t see it through by ending it. I keep going back, so I really should stop trying to run.

Also, my mom called and said, ‘Are you going to stay mad at me forever?’ As a way to break the ice. That was as much as an apology as I’ll ever get. It was great of her to reach out and I welcomed it and we had a good conversation about nothing in particular. This is big change for the better!