So Sorry about what is going on! i agree with the wise and wonderful Open Eyes about this not necessarely being your own fault. Have you tried to suggest couple counseling to him? It is good that you're doing individual therapy as Hopefully it will help you to get through all of this. Please do not give up and feel free to share whatever is on your mind here. You are also right about not letting anger and jealousy destroy you. i Hope and Pray things will turn out well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @HBFay08, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!