I'm feeling weird. I'm actually somewhat calm, but fear I'm dying. Not sure how to interpret the calmness. My parents died young and I'm the same age when my dad died. That I was getting close has freaked me out for the last decade. My mom was sick and away a lot when I was a kid, so health anxiety has been with me a long time. Fortunately, she lived longer than my dad, so now I can worry about getting to her age. Whoo.