i just want to run away from absolutely every.single.thing that constitutes "my life" right now. I just don't want to be anything that has anything to do with me anymore. I feel like I am seeing the black cloud of depression moving toward me again and that scares me and I feel like there is nothing that can be done about it. I feel wretched and hopelessly broken these last few days tbh. I know a lot of this likely has to do with not sleeping much. Last night I did get about 6 hours which was more than I have been getting so maybe maybe maybe if I can get that much or more the next couple of nights things will start looking brighter. If not I'll get in touch with my old pdoc and ask to go back on meds.