because of unmet childhood needs, what exactly do you want from your therapist? What do you want them to do with you? Take you home with them? Treat you like one of their children? Hang out like buddies?

I keep asking this young part of me, that is so insanely attached, what does it exactly want from him? The shame just well ups inside of me. It wants to be part of his family. To be involved in his life everyday outside of therapy. Not just 1 hr a week. To be loved back.

That is something it can never have and all I feel from it is heavy grief like someone you love deeply has died and you can never have access to that person again. It is just heavy choking feeling.

My T and I are trying to work through this but I just do not see this going away anytime soon and it is so painful.

So what do you want from T?