L and I talk about longings and fantasies a lot. I wish she could tuck me into bed and kiss my forehead goodnight. I wish when I'm sick that she bring me soup and rub my back. I wish we'd sit on the couch together and I put my head on her shoulder and her hold me tight. I wish she could play with my hair. I wish I could just hold her hand against my cheek. I wish I could have been her child or her adopt me. I wish we could lay in bed, holding hands with our arms intertwined, just resting. I wish we could watch tv together and I just lay my head in her lap.

However, I am satisfied with all that she does do for me. I know I'm very lucky to have her. She does met a lot of my needs even though she (nor anyone) couldn't met all my needs/wants. And it does help immensely! I have a ways to go, but I'm already feeling more secure within our relationship as well as within myself.