It really depends. Her moving out of state actually is a real possibility, believe it or not. She told me that from day 1. We already have an idea of what we would do if that happens. I will be sad, depressed, but I don't think I'd go off the deep end. Same with if she died. I would fight to carry on to respect her and all she has given me. Sure, I might have to be hospitalized for awhile or go to a crisis house. But I would fight for her. Now if she abandons me, that's a whole other scenario. Pretty much everyone who knows me knows my life is gravely at risk if that happens. Thankfully, I'll have T who will be there. But yeah, another abandonment would kill me.