Hi, I used to post here a long time ago when I was in the deep with attachment to my therapist.

Saw Therapist A for 7 years. Twice a week for 6 of those years. Ungodly attached. T didn't like my attachment. I initiated end after rupture. She didn't stop me and didn't guide any termination.

Saw Therapist B for 1.5 years after end with A. Started to help cope with loss of A. Moved onto other things. I initiated a break/end 5 months ago.

Cut to today where I am going through acute issues due to family member on death's door. Reached out but neither or them will see me to help.

This has me spiraling more. Especially the stuff with T A. Bringing up so many bad memories and feelings.

Idk if I have it in me to go through this all over again with another therapist. I don't want to get attached to another therapist .

Just venting and feeling sorry for myself.