We talk a lot about the fantasies. Mostly I want her to teach me how to be a person. Which is really funny because it's not like I don't know. So, I guess it's more to be a person that I can go to and ask the questions my younger self has and to get things explained at a level that a young child would understand.

Over the years, there have been a variety of wants - being tucked in, wanting more time with her, hold me (let me crawl into her lap and sit with my back against her body), let me rest my head in her lap, hugs. Right now, I want her to be mommy again when I'm actually physically with her. For the last 2 yrs or so, she's mommy off and on when I'm not in session and when I get to session she's Dr. S. I actually think this is progress, even if it's not what I really want (or what a part of me wants).