Struggling a little today. I finally got a good-ish night's sleep after 7-10 days of poor sleep. I am also almost back to normal in my eating which is nice. I've been so hungry. Today has been colder and we got snow, but we just got back from a walk and at least the sun is shining now. All of that should be reason to have a better day, but I'm not really. I now have to contend with actually doing some thinking and making some decisions about the future and what, at the very least, are my next steps. But I feel so full of self doubt. Like I'm just not good enough for the world, even though I have lots of life experiences to refute that. I've accomplished plenty. Why am I having such a hard time believing that it will get better? I've been stuck in this spot for over a year, maybe 2. I just don't seem to be moving. In any direction. Very frustrating, because it's not circumstances keeping me stuck. It's me keeping me stuck. I know many of the things I need to do to get going, and I just can't do them. As I said it's been like this for a long time. Why do I just feel so powerless to take action?