@daladico...I'm glad the med change has you feeling a bit better about things. I don't intend to rob you of your emotions, but feeling things won't get better is part of BD. Been there, done that. It seems if I hang on long enough, things eventually improve. I hope that's the case for you. Waiting is the real burden...

@wildflowerchild...Sometimes the written word can lead one to misinterpret situations, so sorry if I'm about to do that. You acknowledge that you might be in a slight hypo state. You're feeling on edge, you're angry, you want to be in motion & you're writing a lot. Looking in the rearview mirror, it seems I've sometimes been like that as a direct result of hypomania. You know the particulars of your family situation, though. Your anger might be 100% justified. Good luck sorting things out. However, as my own grandma used to say, "Don't break any eggs unless you plan on baking the cake."