I've been off and on the spiritual for my entire adult life. I'm 71 now and I've finally made my peace with it. Since it's been on my mind since I was 5, it has been the Most constant thread in my life. I've become estranged from the spiritual many times telling myself that biology is beautiful and enough. And biology Is beautiful but for me not enough. I know my Aim and how to work towards it. I need the spiritual to live and give purpose to my life. Without it life to me is like food without salt. All the joy and savor is absent and it's just time passing without meaning. Even social work lacks that real giving for me.