@Maven
I guess I could have died. Another pill, another swig of alcohol and who knows what happens. I don't know what a fatal dose of Xanax is.

I obviously can't control myself It's kind of embarrassing. I talk with my pdoc about everything pretty openly and that's why I was struggling if I should tell him. I was just too worried he would pull my Xanax script. I've been on it a long time and I'm sure I'd have to go through detox or terrible withdrawls.

I don't have extra meds. Boy was I hurting for the rest of the month until I was due for a refill.