Ok, so I've been struggling with an eating disorder for 3 years now, my adoptive family never took any notice of it, said I was doing it purely for attention, so I carried on doing it, not eating..

I never hid it from my boyfriend.. Well I told him I wasn;t eating properly because food made me feel sick, jjust smelling it.. Which wasn't a lie, I just held back the fact that I wanted that..

So, he offered me chocolate the other day, a week after he'd tried getting me to eat again.. I only ate when he was there, not when he wasn't.. And I'd stopped eating again, so refused and he kept it there, holding it and I was almost begging him not to give it to me.. and then it clicked and he said "you're not eating properly are you?!" I smiled to try and cover up, but he said "it's not funny!" So I admitted it, there was nothing else i could do..

So now, he's said he's going to keep up tabs on what I'm eating and stuff.. So I'm really stuck as to what I should do :S because all I want to do is lose a little bit of weight.. Even if I am average, I don't want to be average, I want to be a little bit less than average..

I don't know what to do.. I don't want help with it yet, but he won't listen to me.. How can I get him to see?

Help?

Kirsten