The parts of me that T doesn’t get to see rarely “come out” even with family - I’m rarely really angry but have had bouts of scary (to me) angry outbursts at my dad in the last few months. I haven’t felt any reason to be angry at T, though. She knows I hold resentment and anger at my parents but I have good reasons for that. Unless we ever did role play it wouldn’t get directed at her.
She hasn’t really seen the childish side of me, either.
I also hold the fear that if others saw me for who I truly was, I wouldn’t be accepted. Rationally I know this isn’t true, but I find it hard to push past.