I'm 33 (when did it happen ) in a week
A time of life where things are still supposed to be still enough easy
But not for me, as I managed to become literally an hermit after ritiring years ago
I lost my love and my stability in life in the most non dense way, i made people suffer, i've always been ready for my own departure til people around me started dying for real and i had to face what i had become
I have physical health (but getting weaker) but i cannot see a way out
I used to volunteer but now i can't
I'm a ghost of a gone wrong story

Just needed to vent
Sorry