I do not dare tell you that I have not been able to get you and or therapy off my mind. It lingers there. I know I should checkin and see why it lingers, and you know what, I dont care too. I am not sure what will be said Thursday, but I am so numb and at times dissociated, and again like 4 months ago my urges to drink, smoke are starting and images of self harm. I know that engagement in any is not the most adult and i guess I dont care to be the most adult at times. So many things keep playing over and over in my head, and its old conversations that we never finished. I am so unemotional and numb that i do not feel anything at the moment and not interested in writing anymore. Yet I get these urges to look at the pictures of your home. Beautiful backyard !! Would love to tour it, since your doing FSBO I will pass. Cant afford it anyway. If I could knowing me, I would buy it !