So Sorry this is happening. Have you tried to talk to your Husband about this? Please do not give up. i agree with the wise and wonderful AZ Dad 1979 on this matter at least. You have no fault for this, unless there is something you have not told us. Perhaps propose Marriage Counseling to him to him if he's willing to actually put the work into it. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Tiff0, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!